Wondering about the future

i yearn for a place of my own but i fear of facing the 4 cold walls.

i need a world of my own but i fear of the loliness and quietness.

i hate myself for needing companion all the time but yet i couldnt overcome that grief when i dun have one. And my worst is i dun have many good companionS around.

When am i going to grow up? or pass this stage when you'll always have a funny/immature state of mind....

Hmm am i being too sentimental here?.....this is supposed to be a sex forum.....fuck it. a blog is for me to write my heart out.

Dedicated to my buddy

i was msn-ing my buddy and at all moment of depression i am having right now. My heart was touched and i wrote the following to her..... Well, our type of friendship is - we do not say mushi mushi words like these.....but tonight....i really wanna say my heart out cause i dun think i can ever find someone that could be like her. This is dedicated for you - my dude.

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buddy

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i really miss you man

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when i feel no one to run to

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u r the only one that i can really talk to'